This country, the United States of America, has given me numerous opportunities to be what I am today: a decent musician (though I do have some doubt about that). \u00a0It is a blessing to be able to talk about music and occasionally make some music as part of my job, it really is. \u00a0I wouldn’t have been a musician if I stayed in Japan where I grew up\u2014 I wouldn’t even have gotten in a music school in Japan due to lack of the specific knowledge or guidance to navigate through the disciplined preparation process. Well… I might have ended up being a Gagaku musician with no college degree if I stayed in Japan. Music, yes, but still, no Bach. Gagaku wasn’t really the field I could show myself at my best.<\/p>\n
This country, the US of A, opened up the possibilities for me to be who I am and what I am. The openness of American education allowed me to find my passion at my own pace. I feel that I can hold my head high despite being in a social minority group in this country, thanks especially to the diverse nature of my field here. \u00a0And if I didn’t feel optimistic about being only a US citizen, I wouldn’t have waived my Japanese citizenship just to be eligible for the Japanese Government Scholarship to study Bach in Japan! I have confidence in this country.<\/p>\n
Still, sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever live here with a feeling that I truly belong here or am a member of a tightly-knit community. \u00a0From time to time, I get reminded of the fact that I do belong to a minority group. Often it’s the ethnic stereotype joke, and sometimes it’s simply the attitude of someone who doesn’t try to hide their dislikes on Asian people. No big deal for me\u2014 so many good people here are trying hard to keep their chins up and stand tall in difficult circumstances, whatever they are… \u00a0But the interesting thing is, those unfortunate moments aren’t what makes me realize that I’m still very much Japanese<\/em>\u00a0after living in this country for many years…<\/p>\n I am a conservative guy in a non-political sense. I’m unadventurous, and even boring to some people. I like earthy colors to wear. I like things that are traditional and conventional. \u00a0Politically speaking, the classical music field seems to be predominantly progressive, but I certainly have politically conservative friends I feel close to. \u00a0More often than not, I feel at home with them, and I feel good vibes from them. \u00a0Sometimes I sense that I’m like them and they’re like me… except I’m sooo not like them when it comes to how I feel about Social Policy, likely because of my Japanese background. \u00a0For instance, Japan has a universal health care system, and there people without insurance from their employers can participate in a national health insurance program. \u00a0And they can’t be denied coverage. \u00a0I benefitted tremendously from this system as I was born with hypopituitarism (pituitary dwarfism) and needed the \u00fcber-expensive Human Growth Hormon everyday growing up… the Japanese government covered the cost. \u00a0The philosophy of American conservatism aside, it is not easy to understand why some of normal everyday-people from the conservative side would want to fight against something like the Affordable Care Act that can help soooo many Americans including themselves…<\/p>\n I’m certain that the issue of abortion is, for many of my conservative friends, the deal breaker. \u00a0And of course, for a lot of Americans the choices are pro-life or pro-choice. \u00a0I’m from a country where abortion is illegal with some loosely-set exceptions. \u00a0I think abortion, especially as means of birth control for unplanned pregnancies, is morally wrong, but I also understand that there are some extremely difficult circumstances that makes the procedure necessity. \u00a0Japan’s illegality of abortion can only stand as it is because of the exceptions it allows\u2014 and the law’s purpose seems to be simply the reduction of the number of abortions, not elimination of it. \u00a0Here, the common ground<\/em>\u00a0like the compromise seen in the Japanese anti-abortion law with loopholes never gets national attention, and the point always seems to stay at illegalizing abortion or not, not really about finding a way to reduce the number of the tragedy. \u00a0There are many good people arguing for both sides, and it’s easy to predict that this debate isn’t going to settle anytime soon. \u00a0But who’s being more reasonable and logical about the number reduction? \u00a0I couldn’t agree more with the President whom my conservative friends often hate\u2014 couldn’t we put in more budget and efforts in education to reduce teen pregnancies? \u00a0Couldn’t we come up with a way to help with adoption and support mothers with babies with some financial and\/or physical help so that they won’t have to consider the option of killing babies? \u00a0Do you really want your secular government to make the moral decisions for you? \u00a0…It is a problem when my conservative friends consider pro-choice as pro-abortion, because they aren’t the same. \u00a0Frankly I don’t know anyone who is literally pro-abortion.. and I have many progressive pro-choice friends.<\/p>\n Having Japanese parents, I obviously didn’t grow up with sentimental attachment to either Democrats or Republicans\u2014 and I’m just seeing things as they appear to me, a rational individual with spirituality and reason. \u00a0But now it’s getting like wearing a uniform of the opposing team; I belong but I don’t really, when I think about my social identity. \u00a0A half of this problem is me being from another country like Japan, and the other half is how divisive the governmental politics can be to the people in this country… \u00a0Do you know what’s interesting? \u00a0I really don’t have this kind of issues with Japanese people at all!<\/p>\n I actually know a few American people with similar dilemmas, but I suppose those dilemmas don’t matter to them too much, because they all grew up here. \u00a0They are Americans through and through, no matter how you see it. \u00a0I am, on the other hand, still trying to fit in, even unconsciously.\u00a0 I guess I’m overthinking, but the dilemma is not a small problem. \u00a0Not a small problem, if you ask me.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This country, the United States of America, has given me numerous opportunities to be what I am today: a decent musician (though I do have some doubt about that). \u00a0It is a blessing to be able to talk about music and occasionally make some music as part of my job, it really is. \u00a0I wouldn’t have been a musician if I stayed in Japan where I grew up\u2014 I wouldn’t even have gotten in a music school in Japan due to lack of the specific knowledge or guidance to navigate through the disciplined preparation process. 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